Asasi Tesl part 1

I miss asasi tesl. I miss everything about it. I miss how i learn more about english there, and how my friends and i communicate in english 24/7, and how we able to make jokes in english and loao (laugh our asses off) with the jokes, and how english has been just a part of our lives or our daily routine. As we are all aware of, english is not being practiced everyday by majority of malays in our country. So, that is why i said my asasi friends and i had so much fun communicating and joking in english (fyi english jokes sometimes can be so much funnier than malay jokes, or malay jokes translated to english can be funnier too). We also shared one common interest, which is english. There was this one time back in asasi, where the Troublemakers (which consists of Muncit, Hendra, Maman, Kacang & i, and trust me we are troublemakers haha) were going to have lunch. We were talking while walking towards the restaurant and we made jokes in english and the people around us started to give us the 'poyo gila budak budak ni cakap english' faces and we laughed our asses off kkk because like i said english jokes are so funny. And we just didnt give a rat's ass abiut what people are going to say about us. Poyo ke gelabahtek ke whatever la kan. We do speak in Malay k duh. Its not like we pretend to be mat saleh or whatever its just that it is our passion to speak in english so why should we stop doing it right?

 You know, when you do something that you really have interest in, there's a big probability that you won't be facing any problem when doing it. For instance, i love english. English is like my main interest though i might not be really good at it. My sentence structure might not be accurately correct, but hey at least i try. And for me personally, i think english is very important. Nowadays, honestly without english, it is hard to survive. Let say youre going to work at an office and your english is uhm not that good. Would you want to be a laughing stock for your office colleagues? I am Sure as hell you don't want to be one right? 

So my point is learn. I mean everybody has to start somewhere. So if not now then when? I started from the bottom too. Back in standard 5 i didnt even know how to use past tense or present tense. I jumbled everything up and yeah i fucked up the essay hahaha but thank god, my teacher supported me and asked me to join his tuition and started from there i told myself: 'hey english is quite fun ey?' So i learned. Keep on learning. I listen to english songs (my way of improving my english vocab, pronunciation, word structure and many more), i communicated in english with my sister (she forced me to do so and she taught me how to pronounce brands' names correctly; Chanel, Celine and all those expensive overseas brands haha) and she even told me that she will only talk to me if i talk in english with her. So yeah whether i like it or not i have to right? Positively, it helped me A LOT. Thanks to her though. I also watched movies with english subtitles instead of malay subtitles (typical malay people will definitely choose malay sub over english sub). For me, why dont you just try the english sub just one time? Let say youre watching an english movie. Dont you think its better with english sub? Because  then you'll be able to learn the word structure and i know how sometimes we dont even understand what the mat salehs are saying because they talk too fast and we are not that good in english, so by using english sub, you can figure out what they are saying and perhaps you could use it when youre communicating with people? You see there are so many ways to learn english. I personally prefer people to talk in english with me because somehow i can improve my english too. 

Being in Arau is different. No offence but the people here, they dont use english daily and yes i know maybe because Arau is located all the way up in the north bound but still that is not an excuse.. right? If we really want something we will get it no matter what. That is just my personal opinion. Forgive me if im wrong. And ever since i came here (i've been here for almost 3 years now) honestly my english skills have decreased, A LOT. I cant speak english as fast as before, i cant speak english with majority of the people here, oh and i wanna tell you guys one thing. I dont know whether its just me or it is true but, whenever i speak english here, people will, you know like, dislike me. I mean like, is it wrong for me to speak in english here? Sigh. And if i speak in english here they'll be like, 'yelah dia budak tesl pandai english blabla'. Dude, no. Thats not a good attitude. If youre not good at something at least dont prevent people from doing what they love or what they're good at. Dont drag them to your level. Ya know i might not be an excellent student here but i can speak good english ok.

 This is not even what i wanna do. Bachelor in Human Resouce Management. Whuut. Wtf i dont wanna do this. But i had to. I picked the wrong course and it is too late for me to quit now so whether i like it or not i must finish it. Finish what i started yeap thats the ugly truth. And it slowly kills me inside; knowing that i have to live everyday doing things i dont have interest in. So my advice to anybody who reads this, choose wisely. Doesnt matter in what aspect. Do what you have interest in, not what people ask you to do cause it is you who are going to the battlefield and fight, not them. I know how people will say 'hey dengar la cakap parents or older people they know best blabla' but sometimes maybe it is better to listen to your own instinct instead of people's voices. I am sad. How i wish i could just turn back the time and did my asasi very well so that i can live my dream of learning english. But i guess Allah has set my fate. Maybe its not my time yet to study more about english. Maybe i have to get my degree in HR scroll first. The Most Gracious and Most Merciful has set everything for me. I believe in Him. I believe in Qada' and Qadr. 

I think i have many more to say regarding this matter but i forgot. Nevermind i'll tell the story later. Okay got to go. Goodnight  readers (lol if i have one :p) assalamualaikum and have a good night :)

Be a man

Hi. It has been so long since i last posted a post. Well i got more important things to do :) looking back at my older posts here in my blog, i can see that wow i was such a boy. And i realized that ive been a bad person back when i was in the last two years of my 'teen' years. Well, im sorry for that and im growing up now. Growing up to be a man. Learning to think like a man, act wisely think wisely behave correctly and always keep in mind that every action has its consequences. Which means, think thoroughly before i make a decision. And as i always keep in mind, we will never be mature enough. All we gotta do is keep improvising ourselves. Thats the way of life. And in life, there will always be ups and downs. One moment youre on top of the world then next thing you know youre at your lowest. We dont know the future, neither can we predict the future. We must always be prepared for the worst. 

Ive made a lot of mistakes in my life, and i always tend to keep on doing it, sometimes i even do the same mistake. 

Well yes what is life without mistakes right? We learn from them. And im trying my very best to not repeat the same mistakes over and over again. 

.. 

RJ

You ever met a person that means so much to you? Like an ex for instance? That one person that makes it hard for you to forget her? You keep her stuff with you like her perfume, and sort of a keychain that can be attached to a phone? And now youre back. Back for more. Back for the never be forgotten memories. Trying to win her back, be there for her. And wanna be with her for so long without thinking of what people might say about you two. That one person that makes you feel so special and appreciated. She's taller than me, pretty, gorgeous, cute, strong hearted, quite a smartass i must say while me, im not a handsome guy. Its like i dont deserve her. She's kind of out of my league you know. Its something like that. I dumped her once, three years ago. If i could turn back time, i wouldnt have done that. I regret it. Now, i want to win her heart back. I wanna be there for her. No promises. I dont wanna promise anything, cause im afraid i might break it. But i wanna tell her that i'll be there for her if she needs someone to talk to, or a shoulder for her to cry on. It kinda hurts knowing that im no longer that person she search for if she has something to talk to. I dont know if she got a man or not, but im pretty sure she's single now. I'll go for you dollface. 

me yumsta ;)

haaa. okay first of all, hello people who managed to find my blogspot, and still read my story eventhough it has been quite some time since i last posted a new post :) yeay a kudo or kudos or whatever for you readers ^.^ okay so lemme update. for now, i am working at a gym, called Gorgeous Fitness. yeah. GORGEOUS FITNESS. so gorgeous right the name? haha.. okay so my club is located at Southgate, jalan Chan Sow Lin. you guys dont know? okay google it. haha. google has always been a good helper :P

okay moving on, this gym is new. currently, they have 6 clubs if i am not mistaken. a complete gym, my club is big, and i just love working there because my job as customer service eventually helps me with my communication skills, socializing skills, pronunciation of words, and et cetera. but sadly, ive to stop working by end of this month because i got no transport to go to work and go back home. cause kakak's gonna start working soon.. so sad.. im about to show them staffs there who's AISH :P im so poyo right? i knowwww :D

so now, lets talk about someone. im going to talk about me yumsta. ooo. who's me yumsta?? muehehe.. lets just call her Yum. aight? not as in "yam", but its pronounced as "yoom". aight? okay cool. so she is actually, my long lost first crush. she likes me back when i was in standard 5. she's extremely cute. and, friendly.. ok you know what? im too freakin lazy to type now. lets just talk about this some other time when im free aite? goodnight!

oh btw, i looked at my previous posts about the pumpkin thing? well screw her. dumbass played my heart. and im not gonna talk about her anyway. its just pissing me off. plus when i know that she's with the idiot who loved to mess with me backin uitm. too bad. he's a real idiot loser. i pity you bro. you got a chick, that has nothing on her. i repeat, NOTHING. if you know what i mean ;)

well enough. im out. peace out yoo. Assalamualaikum and selamat malam semua :)

hi

hey friends. thanks for being there for me all of the time. the memories we had. good times bad times. we were ONE during ups and downs. but i guess we are reaching our ending by n0w. i will be gone by the time asasi program finishes. i wanna thank all of you guys for being my friends, my hommies, my buddies, my partners-in-crime, and my brothers. i really really love you guys. till the end of time. i will never forget you guys, InshaAllah. i have not talk to Allah for quite a long time. i dont know why am i being so dumb, and forgetful. im sorry. i love my family, i love my relatives, i love my nenek, and i miss my late atuk. i have not been to his grave for such a long time. i miss you atok :'( bye friends. bye

Fungus Tiger

hii. i have a friend. his name is amirul arif bin satimin a.k.a fungus tiger. he is my roommate here at uitm. he is a very kind and damn hilarious guy. he is my best friend forever, my brother, my hommie, whatever you call it. i love him til death. bye

:)

wow. pumpkin pumpkin pumpkin :) congratulations, you managed to be the 4th girl to game me, in a €row! huh, this seem to be, kind of funny somehow? well not really. urghhh i cant accept it at first. to accept the fact that the girl you like to most, the girl you're head over heels about, the girl you would like to proudly address as your girlfriend, gamed you. it sucks, right? well thats how i felt before. not anymore, literally. now, i feel okay because i prayed to allah to open my heart to accept the fact that she's not for me. well, allah opened my heart. i smiled when i saw a picture of her with a guy that i kind of dislike. well that guy fucked with me. big mistake, boy. dont you think i am petite, you can simply beat me. i got my homeboyz, and my hommies my peeps my friends my brothers :) you were wrong, mayn. okay forget about him. the thing story now is about pumpkin. she went to a party with him! aiyoo big sighh. it actually hurts when i saw that picture. i felt very sad, and a bit disappointed. hmm. and just now, my friend told me that last week pumpkin went out with him. haa. it hurt ! well now i am trying to forget her. i wanna forget all about her. like, for real. i cant keep on like this. it affects me. my studies my life my emotions my feelings! and it is kind of obvious that she is avoiding me. i can tell, pfft. so yeah. well pumpkin, if that is what you want, okay then. just, dont play with people's heart, will you? its not good, pumpkin. you dont know how much it hurts when you got played by someone. when someone gave you hopes and being sweet with you and all, then suddenly leave you without feeling guilty. it hurts, seriously. i think thats all. for now. i'll update more about this. thank you for reading :)