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wow. pumpkin pumpkin pumpkin :) congratulations, you managed to be the 4th girl to game me, in a €row! huh, this seem to be, kind of funny somehow? well not really. urghhh i cant accept it at first. to accept the fact that the girl you like to most, the girl you're head over heels about, the girl you would like to proudly address as your girlfriend, gamed you. it sucks, right? well thats how i felt before. not anymore, literally. now, i feel okay because i prayed to allah to open my heart to accept the fact that she's not for me. well, allah opened my heart. i smiled when i saw a picture of her with a guy that i kind of dislike. well that guy fucked with me. big mistake, boy. dont you think i am petite, you can simply beat me. i got my homeboyz, and my hommies my peeps my friends my brothers :) you were wrong, mayn. okay forget about him. the thing story now is about pumpkin. she went to a party with him! aiyoo big sighh. it actually hurts when i saw that picture. i felt very sad, and a bit disappointed. hmm. and just now, my friend told me that last week pumpkin went out with him. haa. it hurt ! well now i am trying to forget her. i wanna forget all about her. like, for real. i cant keep on like this. it affects me. my studies my life my emotions my feelings! and it is kind of obvious that she is avoiding me. i can tell, pfft. so yeah. well pumpkin, if that is what you want, okay then. just, dont play with people's heart, will you? its not good, pumpkin. you dont know how much it hurts when you got played by someone. when someone gave you hopes and being sweet with you and all, then suddenly leave you without feeling guilty. it hurts, seriously. i think thats all. for now. i'll update more about this. thank you for reading :)