things happen for reasons

things happen for a reason. i know my pumpkin can control my behavior and make me a better person. i believe that. and i believe that i am a clever person and i can score in my last semester. i can do this i can win her heart and i can succeed in my academic studies. i like you, and i'll go all the way for you. just one thing i am scared of : being gamed for again, for the 4th time i think. please Pumpkin, i believe that you're you not that type of girl. i am head over heels about you. i am trippin for you. so i just hope that, you won't be playing around with my feelings. i know that if i be with you, i will be the happiest man alive, and i know that you can make me happy every single day. you're just so adorable :)

Me Pumpkin ;)

hii, its been so long since the last time i updated my blog hehe. aah. hurm. okay lets start with this. i am currently, well now i like someone, who is a girl, of course, haha. and she's my age. she's cute, she's so adorable, she's beautiful(that is for sure), and i just love to see her face. and she's a law student. well, let's just call her, PUMPKIN ;) well that's the name i gave her, i mean the name i call her when i am talking to Mirul about her. you know, to "cover line" because sometimes there'll be some other law students near to us when we're talking bout Pumpkin. so yeah, and that name "Pumpkin" suits, haha. okay, then now, i am close to her. i wish i can jut tell her that i like her so much. i always wanna be there for her, no matter what. but, i dont even drive a car now. she's driving a car, so basically, every time i go hang out with her, we'll use her car since i have no car here at Shah Alam. and i feel guilty for that, cause i find it somehow shameful for me not to drive my own car when im taking the girl i like so much for a ride or bringing her to a mall. sighh. i wish i have a car here, unfortunately, nope :) but i dont know how does she feels bout that. i miss her. now she's having a fever. poor my Pumpkin :( i wish i can be there next to her, to accompany her, to keep her warm, and to feed her meds on time, to feed her food sealed with love from me. but that's just what I WISH i can do, unfortunately, again, nope :) ohh ohh but, she owes me a hug hehehe. isnt it just cute? :P anyway, i miss her so much. and i treated her bad today. i just wanna see her, look into her beautiful eyes, hold her hands, and tell her that i am deeply sorry for disappointing her. well umm i think she IS disappointed with my behavior when i met her in the afternoon. cause she invited me to Seksyen 7. i told her i was hungry and so she invited me. but i simply, without feeling guilty or stupid, refuse to go with her. i can see her face expression from smiling to straight face like this :| im so sorry Pumpkin. i was stupid i dont know what i was thinking at that time. you know i'd do anything to have some quality times with you. i miss you. and im worried about you. anyway, its already 4.15 in the morning. i shall hit the sack oh by the way, the song Work Out by J Cole and Love You Like a Love Song by Selena Gomez made me think of you, hehe. cute right? :P nanigh Pumpkin. get well soon! :))