things happen for reasons

things happen for a reason. i know my pumpkin can control my behavior and make me a better person. i believe that. and i believe that i am a clever person and i can score in my last semester. i can do this i can win her heart and i can succeed in my academic studies. i like you, and i'll go all the way for you. just one thing i am scared of : being gamed for again, for the 4th time i think. please Pumpkin, i believe that you're you not that type of girl. i am head over heels about you. i am trippin for you. so i just hope that, you won't be playing around with my feelings. i know that if i be with you, i will be the happiest man alive, and i know that you can make me happy every single day. you're just so adorable :)

Me Pumpkin ;)

hii, its been so long since the last time i updated my blog hehe. aah. hurm. okay lets start with this. i am currently, well now i like someone, who is a girl, of course, haha. and she's my age. she's cute, she's so adorable, she's beautiful(that is for sure), and i just love to see her face. and she's a law student. well, let's just call her, PUMPKIN ;) well that's the name i gave her, i mean the name i call her when i am talking to Mirul about her. you know, to "cover line" because sometimes there'll be some other law students near to us when we're talking bout Pumpkin. so yeah, and that name "Pumpkin" suits, haha. okay, then now, i am close to her. i wish i can jut tell her that i like her so much. i always wanna be there for her, no matter what. but, i dont even drive a car now. she's driving a car, so basically, every time i go hang out with her, we'll use her car since i have no car here at Shah Alam. and i feel guilty for that, cause i find it somehow shameful for me not to drive my own car when im taking the girl i like so much for a ride or bringing her to a mall. sighh. i wish i have a car here, unfortunately, nope :) but i dont know how does she feels bout that. i miss her. now she's having a fever. poor my Pumpkin :( i wish i can be there next to her, to accompany her, to keep her warm, and to feed her meds on time, to feed her food sealed with love from me. but that's just what I WISH i can do, unfortunately, again, nope :) ohh ohh but, she owes me a hug hehehe. isnt it just cute? :P anyway, i miss her so much. and i treated her bad today. i just wanna see her, look into her beautiful eyes, hold her hands, and tell her that i am deeply sorry for disappointing her. well umm i think she IS disappointed with my behavior when i met her in the afternoon. cause she invited me to Seksyen 7. i told her i was hungry and so she invited me. but i simply, without feeling guilty or stupid, refuse to go with her. i can see her face expression from smiling to straight face like this :| im so sorry Pumpkin. i was stupid i dont know what i was thinking at that time. you know i'd do anything to have some quality times with you. i miss you. and im worried about you. anyway, its already 4.15 in the morning. i shall hit the sack oh by the way, the song Work Out by J Cole and Love You Like a Love Song by Selena Gomez made me think of you, hehe. cute right? :P nanigh Pumpkin. get well soon! :))

Big X

Final examination is just around the corner. cut the crap, final is next week D: this is madness ! i am seriously in deep shit now. i am mentally and emotionally unprepared. this is so fuck. i wish i am dreaming but unfortunately, i am not. final examination in two weeks is for real. if i am not mistaken, the examination will be held for 7 weeks. i am unstable and i hate this. plus, day by day, when first semester is about to end, now only i can see the real side of my friends, especially my housemates. they are like, pretenders! argh it is funny somehow, because i got to see those "double faces" :)) but not all of them sucks. only few of those guys who always hanging out in my room, are good and not a pretender. i somehow, has found friends who have the potential of being very close to me. Oh and wanna know something? My hostel, currently looks totally messed up. I swear i don't know what to do with it anymore since many of my friends come to my room everyday, every minute. If i tidy up my room, in less than an hour, it'll be like how it looked like before ; miserable. that's it I'm done with typing. til we meet again next time ;) thanks for reading

Shakiena Ilianny 2

i somehow like this picture so much. cause she did her own face exression while i did my huh face expression hahaha.
you are so going to be remembered by me, Shakiena :')
aint she's just so beautiful? :)
and i love this picture too. aaand thats all. well i actually have few more of her pictures but they're not important.

HIIII :D

wehhh lama setan aku tak upload any news. well,working life is packed and tiring. so no time to post blog. HEHE.

my dream last night

i dreamt about me and wiwin and mira alba. damn hahahaha it was really cool. well the story is like this, we were kind of being attacked by vampires at that moment. the whole world was attacked by vampires. and it happened to be, i was like the hero in my dream. hahaha. so then win and mira were standing next to me. then win asked me "eh mcm mana rupa vampire tu and mcm mana character dia?" then i explained and she's getting all scared and she hugged me! BAHAHAAHAHAHA!